The Journey five years later.

Posted on: August 23, 2020

Its been a while and the pain is no more.

I see so much of you in your siblings.

When you left, my hands felt lighter and heart empty.

With little hope to hold onto.

The doctors reports suggested i would never experience the joy of motherhood again.

But i had a promise. A promise that God gave me as you breathed your last breath in my arms.

J is almost four now.. He fills in your space like a pro. He leads like a first.

God promised me a son and he delivered. Exactly the time He foretold.

He said to me,he is a God of all seasons and i have testified of that.

When J was conceived i was told the risks of developing the same heart issues like you were higher , i was also told never to dare conceiving again. I hadn’t even recovered from the heavy sedation. But i chose the path of faith. Your dad asked me, “Whose report will you believe,” and we chose the Lord’s report

I dared one and a half years later and this time all was great till the princess decided to arrive early.

I cried my heart out knowing the risk she faced. But again God reassured me that He was not done with me yet.. At that time a song of praise sprung.

This time the doctor said i had one more chance. Now he is motion with my faith.

Though “S” developed breathing complications i was at peace coz i had a promise

My keeper was watching over us.

In soo much pain i walked to the NICU every two hours to speak God’s word over her as i breastfed her.

For every negative report, i countered with God’s promise.

What could have been a months stay lasted three days.

Nobody could believe how fast that was. But the creator spoke and His word was enough.

Though the minor set back’s ,our princess bounced back like the little fighter she is.

She grows so fast and she is very pretty and smart.

Every time i remember how fragile she was i see God’s goodness.

She is very strong and healthy.

Am greatfull to those who taught me faith, to those who reflected it and those who stood by my crazy faith.

To those who wait upon the Lord,put you faith in motion. J and S are a product of grace and faith. This journey taught me how to pray and be patient.

I learnt to trust the process.

Elijah was a man like us and he prayed EARNESTLY….

With šŸ˜

Faith sprinkler

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3 Responses to "The Journey five years later."

Reblogged this on PASSIONATE CREATIVE CHRISTIAN and commented:
Thank you for sharing and writing this. I have not like you experienced the pain of loss in this way. Your story testifies of HIM. I have a third child who was born after two caesars. I had been told it was too ‘dangerous’ to have this No3, God blessed us with a second son . He was born Fit and healthy and we thanked God for His Grace. Kev was not quite 2 when he had a febile convulsion after getting measles and Glandular fever together from older siblings. “He will probably not survive the night’ the doctors said. I stood peering out to heaven appealing and praying earnestly for my child’s life. I learned a great lesson that night. I was forced to ‘surrender’ my son into His Hands totally whether He lived or died. I battled in prayer and peace only came when the place in my heart came that I absolutely trusted Him even if we had to walk through the searing pain of loss, The rest of the story is in HIS realm and I won’t share here but I slept I KNEW I had learned a deep spiritual lesson. Kevin came home the next day and forever I give thanks but KNOW absolutely HE IS LORD! Appreciate you beautiful sharing.

Thank you soo much. Encouraged just reading about your experience. This is the same place i came to., total surrender to God. Nothing else matters more to me like what God says. I learnt to listen,even when am at loss i ask Him to hold me.

Thank you for reblogging

Thank you sincerely. I think my comment has gone somewhere else. Blessings.

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